Like so many other women I have experienced shame around sexuality + pleasure...
As a child I had was sexually violated by a trusted male.
I thought this was love.
I was so afraid of being rejected and not loved that I allowed it to happen for far too long.
This became my pattern with men
When I was exploring myself as a teen I really liked making out with girls, so soft and sensual When the boys at school heard about it I was tormented + teased.
I thought something was wrong with me đ€·đ»ââïž
One of my very first lovers recorded a video of us making love, which was a turn on at the time but then showed all of his friends. Then invited me over, they made fun of the noises I made.
I felt so much shame
So I kept my sexual expression buried deeply
My experiences kept me stuck and for a long time prevented me from being open + honest in a loving relationship.
When I speak to women in their 30âs, 40âs and 50âs they too have held so much shame around sexual expression + pleasure due to experiences + societyâs messaging that they have absorbed their whole lives.
When I opened myself to self pleasure + building trust in my body and myself to receive, everything changed.
Self pleasure is a beautiful way to explore what you enjoy, learn about yourself and to enjoy your body. Reconnect with HER and enliven the joy within.
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